Im trying to rebuilt my life. I need to change!!?

You don't have to forget the past entirely, tuck it away, but keep it in mind, remember what it felt like to be there so you don't ever end up going back. Just think of it like starting a new chapter of your life, you're going off to college and you're going to be a new person. Write a list of things you're going to try to change to improve your life, make goals, have priorities, tell yourself that you are beautiful and you deserve a guy who tells you that every single day. If you want to change your life you've got to want to, you've got to be willing to, you can. Good luck.